Motivation
Do you feel when change within yourself as the seasons shift? And I don’t think I mean to consider exposure from the summer sun activating endogenous release of vitamin D, but more-so viewing homo sapiens as a micro of the macro organism. We shift as she shifts. Maybe it does have to do with Vitamin D, I suppose if we go really micro on this topic.
Recently I have entered a new phase of my lifespan in this human form. A time of rest. Recuperation. A lot of time spend philosophizing, considering, witnessing, feeling, avoiding, diving in, understanding and resisting has brought me to just this place. Although the work is never over, for I am a fine student whom eagerly finds comfort within the human condition and solemnly appreciate that (and am graciously thankful for) where I sit in this moment is new to me. It’s taking some getting used to. The illusion of time is no longer a conceptualized framework for me, with the guise of quantum physics I ease into this understanding.
My body and its conditions are shocked by this change, at the same time welcome it and harbor a galvanized understanding of stepping into this chapter. Habitual paradigms haunt routine still, as I ease into gracefulness of being who I am now. More free than the day before. Surrendering to the eternal understanding that suffering is born of expectation; to know that I hold no control while in a quaintly symbiotic parallel all I may control is myself. With such control, how should one choose to act? Are we all that simple in wanting peace, contentment, Nirvana on earth.. Perhaps yes. Humbly I wish to believe in such ideology. We are creatures of love, we are also so much more complex than ever understood.. and the drive to find the eternal answer to life, to the workings of the mind and body and universe is a beautiful poem I shall continue to cast my eyes over until my days are done. You may take that as esoterically or scientifically as you like (is there much difference).
Change. Changing with the seasons, with the days, as the sun falls and the moon rises as each day passes. Changing with age. Changing with experience and wisdom. Change is the only constant thing we experience in consciousness and I vow to surrender to it’s makings to aid the profession of my humanity. And when I meet resistance from time to time, may it show me the need to grasp it with all my might and allow it to transverse throughout my core and allow me to be so humbled by such a lore of life.
In the mean time I honour my body and my mind by baring witness to the ebbs and flows of the cycle of this earthly plane. With kindness and retrospection. Understanding the pull that comes from deep within, as well as the obvious necessities to step up in bravery in each moment.